being big

by Lori on January 5, 2011

Your playing small does not serve the world.
–
Marianne Williamson

I’ve always been smallish.

I’m only 5’2 and when I was in high school I weighed 105 pounds.

I think that for most of my adult life, I’ve been trying to be smaller, to take up less space in the world. Just like my last post about being nice, I have realized lately that sometimes I play small. This is literal and figurative for me. Be smaller in my body, smaller in my voice, smaller in my actions, and in turn, smaller in my life.

But actually, I’m not small.

Have you seen my artwork? It is a direct extension of the truest part of me. It is bold and bright and loud. It makes a statement. It isn’t afraid.

Of course, I’m not saying I want to physically get bigger. But I do not need to be smaller, even if I am not the same size I was in high school. I will remind myself that my body is perfect just the way it is. Energetically, spiritually, soulfully, I want to keep growing.

This year, I will learn to play it BIG instead of small.

In my favorite song by Jason Mraz he says,

You sure look as good as your outlook.
Would you mind if I took the time,
to soak up your light,
your beautiful light,
you’ve got a paradise inside.

This year, I will let my light shine brightly. I will radiate flowers and butterflies.

I will be big.

Shared on Roots of She, Jan. 3, 2011