I made this painting for my husband’s niece who just got the best teaching job ever in a charter school in Rochester. For inspiration, she gave me a list of sayings her school uses to motivate the girls.
When I first saw “Be loud, be proud,” I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. I get the Be Proud part, but Be Loud? Really?
Oh, right. Of course. The whole idea of Being Loud conflicts with how I was raised to be a quiet, Nice Girl. Quite, nice, non-confrontational, respectful. Best to be seen and not heard. Blend in the background. Do not speak up.
At 43 I still struggle at times with finding my voice. I still stay quiet when I have to much to contribute. I have opinions and beliefs and feelings that I often keep to myself, to keep the peace.
I am a Peacemaker for certain. I’m introverted. I’m deeply compassionate. Being Loud kind of goes against the grain of my being.
But what if I was taught to Be Loud and Proud instead of quiet and nice?
I’ll never know the answer to that question and I cannot go back and change the past. So speaking out, worrying less about what others may think, being true to myself…this is all part of my work now.
I like the 40’s. Being loud and proud isn’t always easy for me. But, these days I’m feeling a lot better in my own skin, just as I am.