I am painting through constant banging all around me.
Today hardwood floors are being installed in our kitchen. The linoleum in our kitchen was white, worn and awful. Even when I got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the floor, I still felt like it was never ever really clean. So I am beyond excited about this new floor. But, it is really loud here and I am noticing that I am anxious around all the noise. The banging is intense. It is non-stop.
I am super grateful that we are having work done on our house- it is going to be so much better when it’s done! (We are turning our home into a Soul Space.) At the same time, I am not as productive as I usually am. My schedule around here is way off and I feel like I am way behind in just about everything. I know I am dropping balls by not returning emails and phone calls. I’m overwhelmed by constant flow of contractors in and out of our house. Our furniture and appliances have been pulled and displaced, and add to how much things are unsettled (and a mess). In situations like this, I feel very highly-sensitive to the chaos around me.
This situation gives me a chance to work on accepting what is. Accepting that I am good enough just as I am, even when I am not being as productive. Accepting that my “overwhelmed” tendencies are just thoughts in my mind. Accepting and understanding that this is a Both/And situation. Both a super big blessing And a stressor. It is teaching me patience and gratitude. And reminding me again of the importance of self-care. It’s all good.